It has taken days for me to summon up the energy to even turn on the computer to write this note.

Sometime between Christmas and New Year my partner Pam and I started to both feel unwell.

I have had two positive RAT (rapid antigen) test results for covid-19. We both have very different symptoms

Although the actual symptoms are rather mild (i have experienced FAR worse flu’s) they are very debilitating on top of what I am already experiencing and I am worried about the ability of my system to resolve the pathogen.

Pam read out the possible side-effects of the anti-viral medication she has been prescribed and they include nausea and dizziness.

These are symptoms that I experience every day of my life and have since before the covid era and I have failed to get any medical practitioner to take an interest. 

This is the second time in just under 20 years that I have had influenza. If I mention this to the doctors they just smile and say it’s wonderful I have such a fine immune system.

I would now say: “OK, but the quid pro quo is that I feel unwell 24/7. My greatest fear is that my immune system is unable to resolve the pathogen.

There is no way I can be restored to health. My fear is that I may go to a new level of unwellness, something that had already happened before that.

That is why I have been silent for a week.